another dark inside me

So I feel so depressed recently, it is not about me at all. But only to think about someone's else problem make me wanna stop living. 

I just feel like I don't deserve the world. It is so cruel and mostly make me wanna cry!

I wanna shout out about what I feel, I wanna stop here. 

I feel like I can't do this anymore. 

Its not me. It's not about my life at all. It just so sad and stressed to think about. 

Okay it's about the kids. 

Well, you're right I never give a birth, and I don't even have one. 

But there always something make me so depressed and stressed just to think about the kids. 

The way how the world treat them. Especially their parents. 

I don't understand why, it just full of surprises. 

"If it's about me.., if it's about how much I laugh abd need to pay with sadness so just take my soul.., take me from this cruel world. "