a milky-way around darkness

Its over there down.. So hurting. 

Okay take a little breath.., 

This is how it's supposed to be! Probably. I just feel so idiot. I feel like a hell comes up around. 

I dunno. 

Life is weird. Or probably only mine. 

This feeling.., something that I couldn't stop. Something that hit me ever time its happened. 

If only I could stop this. By doing something. But feels so unreal. 

Things are running like river's water, going by flow. And how can I stop this all to be something good, if it's all comes from outside. How can I..? 

I wish that something powerful lift me up to somewhere. To stop this feeling! 

Or make the things which is isn't mine being something good.