STARSEED : the lost boy
You can love someone,
and still..
choose to say goodbye.
you can miss a person,
and still be glad..,
that they're no longer in your life.
dreaming someone is normal.
i have been in the situation that i don't even understand what i'm doing. its not because i'm drunk (silly) it just because sometimes i push myself to fit in the place that i don't. and i often questioning myself why? its like why am i here ? what this is all about?
i found a word that is kinda strang for me STARSEED.
i never though there is something like this exit. but whatever is that that could be one of things in my head.
Starseed : star people (New age belief)
there are many books talking about it. and i founds many article as well. i dont know if its real or its not. it just something that i wanna learn more.
i cant even think like how did humans knows about it?
like the idea itself always amazed me.
the world is super amazing.
and i really wanna learn more about many thing. i dont know if i have enough time or i dont. or sometimes its not always about.
its about someone around.
i dont want to be something bad or you now like the shit that they need to clean about. i always dissapoint them eveytime i choose what i like or what makes me feel better of doing it. so it takes ages for me to think about things.
i am afraid with so many things.
basically its not about me. but the loves one. i cant see them sad. i dont want to see them have a bad day(eve tho it happens sometimes) i know someone's else happiness its not my responsibility, if only i could say that to my heart , but everytime it happened. i just cant. and im blaming myself of not doing it better.
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