Its all just about time.
What you hoping through with fighting
Every time it comes, it feels like a dream.
But try to remind yourself 'it will be passed' n it 'll different tomorrow. That's the only one I know.

I was in here with him, we are not really talking, maybe it because we enjoy the view. Or something else that I can't guessing.
But it was a nice day.
Even little bit raining. For the first.
Then it's getting heavy.
We just stand by under the trees try to find something to make us save from it.
I was hug him for a few minutes.
Then we talk little bit after.
And somehow its so quite for a minutes.
And suddenly he realize that all my body got wet because of the rain. Then he hugged me so tight.

But today he wasn't here.

So sad.

I can still taste him
The smell of his body, its comes to me every time I'm alone.
Its take my tears slowly.

It feels like a dream.
The way he was here, with me.
And now he is so far away.

I have no idea how to deal with it. Some how. Basically I can handle everything by myself. But it feels different now.