A thing between light&dark

Here i am, sit down in the beach, watch every move of the waves.
There is nothing special over there, I have no idea what makes me keep watch it. But actually its not about the waves at all.
I figure it out about what I've decided.., all these things are what I like the most. But not all of them is match with me.
Sometimes I start to wonder, is the fault is on me?
If its true?! How do i fix this?
I tried hard to find it out
But I've been realize that, maybe it was my first impression, (I like it so bad, YES, RIGHT) but then when I got it, when its mine, n then I know the details of it, I know the truth is not all of it is match with me.
I wanna keep it with me, because I like it a lot. I really really like it. But a few part seems like kick me away from it. That's the most silly thing that I've ever know , that's me.